Future Be Damned

The sky at night is a deepening red
Someone stabbed the sun, and out she bled
Sinking into the sea at night
Robbing the world of all it's light

Then the darkness comes so quick to steal
The hope of dawn, the wold to heal
Wind rapes my ears and chills my bones
Nothing left in the night but shrieking moans

Of a soul, lost, alone and afraid
How many more times must my conscience be stayed
The stars at night keep a watchful eye
Feigning indifference to my heartfelt cry

That my heart should know the reasons be
For all I've suffered, I deserve to see
When I scream to the heaven's "I don't understand"
The answer is silence, the future be dammed

-by Shane J Kroll

To Say Goodbye

A while from now, in days to come
a million rotations of the sun
your memory will fade away to dust
as though I always knew it must

The pain I felt will ease, you swear
your body is gone, but I'm still there
waiting patiently for your glance
still hopelessly hoping for my chance

Lying in your arms, I loved you
and in my heart, you loved me too
I'll be there the rest of my days
knowing, lying, that you would stay

Gone one day, just after noon
like some random cycle of the moon
you said goodbye, just standing there
then gone like that into thin air

Days go by, and nights are so long
wakeful sleeping, knowing somethings wrong
unable to change, I weep for the past
with tears comes peace, and sleep at last

I Know

I know every beating of your heart
I know every end before you start
I know the looks you give, and what they mean
I know those looks will never look toward me

I know your feelings of love are true
I know every neurotic thing you do
I know when your happy you wave side to side
I know when you wave up and down its goodbye

I know your happy when your with me
I know there's so much you want to be
I know every line that lines your face
I know I can never have that place

I know which movies make you cry'
I know what jokes make you split your side
I know what turns you on and makes you glow
I know these are things I can never show

I know the pain in life you've felt
I know the blows your life has dealt
I know there's nothing I could ever do
To make you love me the way I love you

I will stand.

Now, today, on this my own day of days
So long I've been denied, so many ways
This moment, today, all shall be made clear
With voice, with breath, I shall make you all hear

I will not lie down, my self be denied
For too many years I've hidden and lied
Afraid of my truth, my passion, afraid
My blood runs cold, how many tears I've paid

Alone in the dark I have cursed my heart
Blamed it for making me one set apart
You that instilled in me hatred unfair
I heard you, believed you, sank in despair

Your lies, fears and understanding forgot
You've caused pain for all the things I am not
Your blindness gave me the will and the sight
To ever have strength to stand up and fight

From this day on, from now to forever
I will stand and be true and banish never
Until the day you have learned to forgive
Your words fall deaf on the life I will live


I wrote this in 2004 when I was walking past City Hall every morning on my way to work and Mayor McSteamy Gavin Newsom turned the world on it's head by allowing gays to marry. Walking past the lines of people just wanting to get married was pretty moving. So I wrote this poem.

All I'm saying is that it is a legal contract between consenting adults recognized and sanctioned by the US Government. They cannot define love, they shouldn't be allowed to ill-define it either.

No More Tears

No more tears for lovers gone
No more tears for friends passed on
No more I love you's, no more goodbye's
No more tears as my heart again dies

No more pain, please God, no more pain
Don't let my heart be broken again
one last chance, one last try
Please don't let it be another goodbye

One last chance before I steel my heart
One last go at another start
Risk to love, risk to live
Another reason for my heart to give

My time will come, I've heard before
that time will come for me no more
No more pain, no more fears
From now 'till forever, No more tears